Excruciating Pain

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Excruciating Pain

Walk with me and work with me — watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly -Matthew 11:29.
Today, I remember why I had been extraordinarily watchful of my diet...and why I had been exceptionally active in my exercise...

It was because I suffered an awful excruciating pain where I had to stop eating...
For three months... literally!

I remember the times when I smell the sweet smell of food, but I wasn't allowed to eat anything because it would trigger pain in my body.

Gall Stones

It was because I had gall stones. These gall stones were formed by my gall bladder, due to food that I enjoyed for a moment of pleasure.

I enjoyed fatty foods, and all unnecessary junk foods, thinking they would not bring me any harm since they are not considered poison...Until the day my stomach ache intensely.

I was brought to the hospital, and in it, I found out that it was the end of my happy days with food.

These excruciating pains were enough for me to be able to say "No" to eating junk foods and even those which are not junk but are not healthy for me after God has been gracious to heal me and allow me to keep my gall bladder.

But I guess, just like any human being, I tend to be forgetful... as the Israelite...

I began to try and taste cheese again after a month that I had naturally flushed my gall stones.

And now, after more than a year, I am terribly ashamed to admit that I have fallen back into my old ways of eating.

I had forgotten the diet that I had religiously followed right after I felt the pain...

I have missed all the exercises that I had carefully observed and resolved right after I got my eating privileges back to me...

Why do I have to wait, for myself to experience pain before I choose to live a healthy lifestyle?

Why can't I just choose to live a healthy lifestyle even if there are no outright consequences?

Why is it hard for me to say No to temporal pleasures of food, when I could easily say No to these when it is a matter of life and death situation.

Do I actually have to wait when it is too late before I change my ways?

I praise and thank God for always warning me. Sadly, it had to take pain before I hear His Gentle voice...

I thank God that I realize through pain, how much He loves me and that He wants me to take care of my body the best way that I can. Not mediocre way.

I thank God for making me realize before it is too late.

Kindly pray for me, that, despite my busy and hectic schedule, God will part the red sea for me so that I could find time to go to the gym, which He has blessed me to be a member of.

I'm genuinely terribly sorry that I had to realize it now. Kindly pray for my complete and total healing.

Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me - Psalm 51:10.
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November 12, 2012

Excruciating Pain

Excruciating Pain

Walk with me and work with me — watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly -Matthew 11:29.
Today, I remember why I had been extraordinarily watchful of my diet...and why I had been exceptionally active in my exercise...

It was because I suffered an awful excruciating pain where I had to stop eating...
For three months... literally!

I remember the times when I smell the sweet smell of food, but I wasn't allowed to eat anything because it would trigger pain in my body.

Gall Stones

It was because I had gall stones. These gall stones were formed by my gall bladder, due to food that I enjoyed for a moment of pleasure.

I enjoyed fatty foods, and all unnecessary junk foods, thinking they would not bring me any harm since they are not considered poison...Until the day my stomach ache intensely.

I was brought to the hospital, and in it, I found out that it was the end of my happy days with food.

These excruciating pains were enough for me to be able to say "No" to eating junk foods and even those which are not junk but are not healthy for me after God has been gracious to heal me and allow me to keep my gall bladder.

But I guess, just like any human being, I tend to be forgetful... as the Israelite...

I began to try and taste cheese again after a month that I had naturally flushed my gall stones.

And now, after more than a year, I am terribly ashamed to admit that I have fallen back into my old ways of eating.

I had forgotten the diet that I had religiously followed right after I felt the pain...

I have missed all the exercises that I had carefully observed and resolved right after I got my eating privileges back to me...

Why do I have to wait, for myself to experience pain before I choose to live a healthy lifestyle?

Why can't I just choose to live a healthy lifestyle even if there are no outright consequences?

Why is it hard for me to say No to temporal pleasures of food, when I could easily say No to these when it is a matter of life and death situation.

Do I actually have to wait when it is too late before I change my ways?

I praise and thank God for always warning me. Sadly, it had to take pain before I hear His Gentle voice...

I thank God that I realize through pain, how much He loves me and that He wants me to take care of my body the best way that I can. Not mediocre way.

I thank God for making me realize before it is too late.

Kindly pray for me, that, despite my busy and hectic schedule, God will part the red sea for me so that I could find time to go to the gym, which He has blessed me to be a member of.

I'm genuinely terribly sorry that I had to realize it now. Kindly pray for my complete and total healing.

Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me - Psalm 51:10.

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